Lydia Sunrise

Lydia Sunrise came into my office wearing all pink. She came with her class for questionnaire - Her question to me was, "How many pets do you have?". I answered back "0" then she smiled. I asked her, "How many pets do you have?", she said "5 fish and one named is Pink" 

When she left the room she said to me, "See you Gramma Dolly".... awww made my day. <3 

 

My Grandbabies

From top to bottom -

Charmaine, Sophia, Thorsten and Shadow.

Jayden, Justine, and Lydia.

Noodin, Evelyn, and Nimkii.

Julius, Arius, and Leon.

 

I miss you.

 Geez, I miss and think of him every day.

December 2, 2022 at 8:55 a.m is when I got the call from the Toxicologist regarding Matthewba's death.

Just as I knew, it was drug overdose. I call it poison/murder.

His Fentanyl level was 13 as 4th level is considered lethal. There was Cocaine and Methadone mixed in as well. I assume this took his life very fast and quick as there was no struggle. I found him in his bedroom kneeled (fetal position) against the wall underneath the window. Fist thing I saw was his feet. His feet was black as night and my first thought, "why is he passed out and why is his feel black? I said *Geez, he must of lost his shoes somewhere and they're black from the mud*. I cried out "Wake up, Matt...wake up!"...

Little did I know he was already gone.

I miss you Matt.

Everyday is a bit of struggle to keep a smile on my face and act like everything is OK. It's not, I'm still hurting and grieving. I do take comfort knowing that you're happy in Heaven. You are taken good care of up there. And I'm happy there are no killer drugs up there. 

But I do miss you here in this world. 

Brain Stew

One off my son's many tattoos. I've always wondered why "Brain Stew" then after some research it's from Green Day. One of his favorite bands.

Geez, I miss that kid so much. But we gotta keep living our life. 

I will always remember. 

Love you, my son - always.